I’m just a grasshopper.

31 But the men who had gone with him said, “We can’t attack those people! They’re too strong for us!” 32 So they began to spread lies among the Israelites about the land they had explored. They said, “The land we explored is one that devours those who live there. All the people we saw there are very tall. 33 We saw Nephilim there. (The descendants of Anak are Nephilim.) We felt as small as grasshoppers, and that’s how we must have looked to them.” Numbers 13:31-33

Yesterday was a rough day, we are still very new to everything down here. I was called out of service because my usually very happy baby decided to start screaming and not stop… My second youngest loves to bolt and not come back and then when you proceed to talk to her she says “no! mommy!” With a very cheesy grin. I’m tired. Not sleeping and battling stress. God has led us to Florida and we obeyed but it’s not easy. We need to adjust to a new church, new routine, new friends and trust our house will eventually sell and Justin will find work after school. I’m feeling as small as a grasshopper. My sister asked if I was okay yesterday and I wasn’t. “I feel like I’m in a spiritual desert!”

The story of the twelve spies of Israel came to mind. They were lead very miraculously out of the hands of pharaoh and slavery. Moses told the leader of each tribe to scout of the land the Lord promised to them. They did for 40 days. And you know what they found?

“23 When they came to the Eshcol Valley, they cut off a branch with only one bunch of grapes on it. They carried it on a pole between two of them. They also brought some pomegranates and figs. 24 So they called that valley Eshcol [Bunch of Grapes] because of the bunch of grapes the Israelites cut off there.”

Grapes! So large they put them on a pole. How amazing is that? It was a place of great wealth. Now what’s the hold up on setting up camp? Oh right… those giants that made them feel as small as grasshoppers. Well, spoiler alert! They WERE comparable to grasshoppers. Who could blame them for being timid and saying no way, this is too much. Too big.

Do you remember what happens next? They were exiled to the desert where the whole generation died off and never got to experience the abundance of fruit that comes from faith. There were only two in the group who were spared. Caleb and Joshua. What did Caleb say that spared him?

“30 Caleb told the people to be quiet and listen to Moses. Caleb said, “Let’s go now and take possession of the land. We should be more than able to conquer it.” 

Not only did he say they could conquer it, but they should be “more than able.” Why? Why did he believe that? He had FAITH. But more than that he wasn’t backing down to a challenge. He knew the Lord, he saw the miracle of the Red Sea and he didn’t let his fears and reality of their size fog the realty that God is able, He is greater, and he follows through with his promises.

I’ve been very focused on the Giants. As a result, I’ve been believing lies. He is able, this wasn’t right. I’m too tired to press on. I’ll just stay here. etc.

I need to look back and see the miraculous ways God has already moved, then be willing to fight with faith the giants that are here and are to come. I have a daily choice. Keep walking. Keep fighting. Pitch my tent. What other option do I have? The desert? No thanks. It’s time to sharpen the blades. Get on my knees. And recommit to His best for my life.

I don’t know what you’re facing. Maybe it’s great loss? A lot of change? Or just the weariness of life. Don’t be afraid to trust the one who is greater than all just because a task might be towering over you. Just because it is promised, doesn’t mean it won’t take work.

What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:

“For your sake we face death all day long;

we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.’ Romans 8:31-39

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