Friends, today has been rough. I’ve shed some tears, yelled at my children and despised my husband. I was so entangled with what was convenient for myself, I acted hateful and hurt. But do you know who was hurting me? It wasn’t my husband, it wasn’t my kids… it was myself. I’m a mom of four littles under four and I’m tired. Weariness is bone aching deep. There are seasons like this and that is okay. But do you know what is not okay? Weariness of the soul.. When you let yourself become so dry and detached. That is what I have been doing. Allowing the physical exhaustion to dictate the status of my heart. I read this in Hebrews 12 today and it convicted me.
“Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. And have you forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons?”
I HAD forgotten. I allowed myself to forget the goodness of God. His selfless acts of love and what he endured for me on the cross. My weary heart was going down a slippery slope towards becoming bitter one. But Hebrews has more!
“Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed. Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord. See to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God; that no “root of bitterness” springs up and causes trouble, and by it many become defiled;”
Although by His grace I am saved, and I will never be snatched out of His Hands… I hadn’t obtained His grace for today. I need it daily. I don’t want to be a bitter wife, or mother. My hope and prayer for today, and tomorrow and however long the Lord has allowed is that I will be one full of grace.
“Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.”
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.”
*The picture was taken by me in the Island country of Malta.*
Stories of His grace 
Such a good reminder at every season of life. Thanks for sharing and reminding us.
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This is a battle for me often, friend! My wants, my conveniences, my time, my, my, my! Thanks for being transparent and teachable–love you, friend!
Nicole
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Great post … Not easy to write or live … Keep up the good work
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